Hey Mentium
Welcome back. And good on ya for not making excuses for the drinking. It just won and that's what happens to me for sure. I had a helluva day yesterday and believe me, my mind was really trying desperately to make me think that drinking was a good idea. I am thankful that yesterday I saw the truth.
AA is an excellent source of support, knowledge and strength. If it keeps you sober, that's all that matters. Your addiction obviously is trying to separate you from that source. Don't let it.
Good luck.