Dandylion, thank you for the reminder. It probably won't last a lifetime even if it feels like it. Yep, he hurt me really really bad, feels like he backstabbed me ( emotionally).and it hurts even more when someone you wouldn't expect does that to you, someone you trusted with your heart and soul.
I'm doing the vailing wall exercise. I even talk to Aaron about how I feel and that I'm so sad for us, and for him not having a dad. Aaron is getting taller and heavier. He smiles at me, and he even does that when he's asleep. So adorable. He reminds of his dad. I think he's going to have a lot of his features. Aaron is easy to take care of, sleeps and eats well, and is not at all a cranky child. I'm blessed to have him.