the 2 things that are killing me are my self confidence and lack of motivation some days.
I saw a shrink for ten years before telling him I'm an alcoholic because I didn't want to confront it and felt enormous shame about getting drunk every day. Nevertheless he was delighted that I stopped drinking and found the support of other alcoholics in AA meetings. Alcohol is also a depressant and once I got sober I could start anti-depressants, which helped a great deal.