Originally Posted by
vulturine 
It doesn't really matter anymore. The meeting with my social worker left me in a worse place than I was a couple months ago. I'm so screwed.
Be patient. It will all come together. We addicts and alcoholics make all kinds of nutty and insane decisions. I know I've made more than my share. I've also learned that sometimes those bad choices come back to haunt me and I have to learn to deal with them. That's the part I hate most.
The important thing is you're still here. You're learning and growing all the time. Hang in there. It will get better!