Originally Posted by
Horn95 
Was feeling so good, and felt like perhaps I was not a "true" alcoholic -- whatever that means. So I said, "what the heck?! One or two won't hurt to take the edge off...
You were trying the old "I can't drink" defense, which is not true, since you can definitely swallow alcohol, as you just proved. What "I can't drink" actually means, and which you intuitively know, is "I can't drink without bad things happening."
The problem with that assumption is that there is a giant loophole embedded in it, namely that bad things
might not happen if you swallow alcohol. Of course, your addiction took full advantage of that loophole, as it does for so many others, and argued that "one or two" won't hurt, if you're careful.
Try abstaining from the benefits of drinking instead, and not from the possible pitfalls. That is, you might reasonably conclude "yes, swallowing alcohol usually makes me feel good all over, and it takes the edge off, but those benefits are what I abstain from."
In that case, you'd finally meet your addiction on its own turf.
No more loopholes.
