I realized that was why I was holding on to it before. That I still had hope. Completly true. And this morning I finally just had this urgent need to be done with it already. And then I am denied by bad timing.
You are right it should not matter to me what happens to his stuff .
I know that I am more upset thinking that the baby has been born and I am...well you know. I am sure you guys can imagine. To him I am no one now. And that shouldn't matter either to me but today it does. And it doesn't help being in my thirties and wanting baby of my own one day. I know one day I'll be really glad that I went through this rather than getting stuck in it. I definately know it's no fun to try to have a family with an active A.
BUT I did move EVERYTHING from my house into the garage. Though he doesn't know about it is helpful for me to not look at the stuff that once belonged to his family! It's all out with the spiders. I hardly ever have a need to go in my garage so this is better. And next time I speak to him I will demand he take it ASAP.