Originally Posted by
Deereynolds 
i went to a meeting earlier and identified as a newcomer again...
This is the only time I've ever been truly suicidal. I'm not telling anyone except you guys. I cannot worry anyone any more than I already have.
I can't do this. I can't rebuild. It's too hard. I don't want to use but I definitely do not want to be on this earth a minute longer.
Don't do what I did. If you're thinking about it, don't. It's still not fun.
What's the hurry? What's the downside with checking in
right now with an Emergency Room? Seeing a doctor? They can and will help you. Don't fall for that something inside your head that tells you there's a rush down a one way trail, a once in a lifetime trail! There are ways in which your faith in life, faith in yourself can be restored. I'm sure that those you talk to will be sympathetic and will help you feel better about yourself and your future. Give it a chance! Give us a chance! Give yourself a chance! Keep posting! We are here for you 24/7.
Bill.