Thank you for your advice!
What I meant by saying aa told me I was going to relapse was the whole saying of "you must do x, y, and z, or you will drink again and die. Well I literally was doing x y and z and the rest of the alphabet. Honestly trying my hardest to be a good members of AA. So why did those things fail me? That is what I can't figure out.
I began to feel more and more like those things weren't helping and that I really was brainwashed like everyone else.
I'm still going to go, I'm going later today, one day at a time. I'm not going to make any major decisions right now.
To me attending AA when it didn't work is the definition of insanity: trying the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. But I'm not clearheaded enough right now to change anything major.