Heck yes. I rarely speak at meetings and pass if I'm 'called on'. I've only seen podiums at pre-set speaker meetings were the speaker knows well in advance that they are the 'featured' act so to speak
. I'd pass on the podium thingy.
Like Berry said, try another meeting. And maybe if you have a service position....something like setting up coffee, or clean up. That way you are doing rather than speaking. Might make it easier.
But most off try not to stress about it. That is a viscous cycle that just makes things worse. You aren't responsible for carrying any conversation or making anything happen. Just be you and work on accepting that.