Me too
Me too. I was always a stay-at-home, "numb it all" drinker. That's why I now leave home, whenever possible, when my "AV" (just learned what that is, so proud of myself), starts talking to me. Its voice is a lot quieter when I am taking a walk, going to a movie, pulling weeds, whatever takes me out of the house. When I can't leave home (it's freezing here right now), I learned from someone else to set a timer and do something-anything-for 30 minutes. That worked really well last night.
All of this to say, I'm with 'ya. It wasn't about about having a yaa-hoo time for me. It was about numbing. So now I know I'll need to figure out what the heck I was numbing, but all in good time...