Precious, you and I are about the same age. I too was lost in my own life. What I can tell you at over six months sober, everything has improved. It's like a miracle to me that I get to re-live every morning when I wake up sober. I had a bunch of problems and issues like so many alcoholics. Once you get some sober time those issues all improve with some work. Please give it a try I promise you won't regret it.