Hi Shenz. Your brain chemicals are trying to work out what the hell is going on. Add emotions, thinking and feelings with that and hey presto! Instant all round crap. I personally would tell all this to a doctor. For me it took some tweaking- but an antidepressant helped. Of course meds do not have a chance to do what they are meant to if mixed with booze. It also takes a while to work. Also Igo to AA, SMART and a therapist to work out the thinking/feeling stuff. I have proven (without booze) to have a bit of courage and strength- but I could not possibly do it alone. Thoughts and prayers to you. PJ.