I want to get high...
I guess I would be 5 weeks clean, pushing 6. Started smoking pot again just recently, drinking, setting myself up for the big fall. Tonight, I feel like I could give my life back over to heroin, and the evils of it all. Would be such a stupid choice, but I just want it so bad. I just don't know what to do with myself, I just don't think that it will ever go away. At least tonight, this is the way that I feel. It's after midnight, and I keep sitting here contemplating a trip to go and cop. My nerves are on end, I'm restless, and shaky. Just want to close my eyes and be done with the night.