viola71 - I can assure you I have asked all of those questions myself. You are not alone. I reflect on mine and RAH's early relationship, and wonder why in the world I did not choose to leave at that early stage when there were red flags in different aspects of our relationship. I wonder why I "put up" with things or allow things to be done or said. I think being honest to your truth is going to be a great thing for you. Speak honestly, speak openly, act humbly, and continue to put one foot in front of the other ONLY in the direction that is healthy for you and your daughter. You are stronger than you feel!