Been there my friend... You know you have a problem, so you're trying. For me Day 3 and Day 4 were always the worst. Day1/2 I felt like junk, so and it was easy as a reminder not to drink, didn't want to ever feel like that again. Day3/4, I felt better, I was fine, I can drink, it's no problem. Back to Day1/2...
I too was a binge drinker, didn't drink during the week. I know now binge drinker just basically is a time for the proper term for me, Alcoholic.
I saved this the last day 1 I had, I typed it in a notepad window and kept reading it over and over again:
Do you remember that horrid acrid smell when sleeping? The itching? The sleeplessness? The feeling of failure and depression? The thought of not remembering what you did? YOU DO NOT WANT THAT BACK, EVER. IT’S NOT WORTH IT, YOU DRUNK.
Kind of straight and to the point, isn't it? I read it every morning now. Maybe on your last day one today, make yourself a note for the future, sober you?
We're here for you!