Hello friends,
So, sorry for the sarcasm in the title, but it does feel like I'm starting again for the 10,000th time!
I have been AA a few times, but didn't stick with it.
I have tried giving my wallet over to my wife on Friday.. but I took it back
I feel like I need to be restrained on Friday.. like with handcuffs or something LOL.
I'm just so tired of trying and failing. I don't know if I'm a suitable candidate for rehab. I only binge on the weekends.
However, I did binge last night because I wanted to get in as much beer as possible before 2017... if that makes sense.
I literally feel so terrible now.. physically. But the cravings will be back in a couple of days.
So, we are on the cusp of 2017. I really want to make this a sober year. But the AV is so so so powerful.
Lately I've started texting people on facebook while drinking. Deleted my account last week. Things are getting out of hand.
I have proclaimed to friends and family 'I have quit drinking' so many times that if I tell them again they will roll their eyes.
So. This is where I'm at on Friday morning. Bleary eyed and typing this at work.
Thanks for listening
