You know, it's not easy I believe for anyone
to experience death. For my entire young
life as a child, my folks shielded us from family
or friends deaths and never took us to funerals.
I remember my grandfather passing and
we did go to the funeral but I was in my
alcohol addiction numbed to not really
remember the feelings I was suppose to
feel when he passed.
It wasn't until I was in early recovery and
one of my mentors passed away that I remember
my sponsor telling me that I should at least
attend the wake in order to put closure to
my bond and admiration I had with him.
So I did.
Then several yrs ago, my 2 loveable cats
after living a full happy life with me passed
away. I had not experienced death up close
and personal and thus made me feel very
uneasy and of course sad.
As days and moths passed, I still was
experiencing feelings I had never experienced
before with death and it hurt like heck as
I continue to pray and place all that I was
feeling in God's hands and waiting till it
all would eventually pass.
Im here today and long as I don't get into
my head thinking of them passing and
all that lead up to that final moment,
thinking of good times and joking about
them only, then I'm okay.
I know that experiencing, birth and death
is just a part of life and we have to accept
it and in many cases we cant control them.
I just continue to stay close to my Faith
and know that I'm in God's Hands for
comfort, guidance each day that I'm alive.
Continued peace and happiness for
you and baby Aaron.
