Aasharon, I'm glad you enjoyed reading about my little baby. I'll try to share as much as I can. This Sunday we'll go visit grandma ( my AH's mom) for the first time. She's really looking forward to seeing him. I think she will be overjoyed when she sees him.
I hope the meds will get me in balance, a little at least. I haven't really pampered myself. I've stopped caring about myself, honestly. I'm thinking " What's the point? My AH isn't here anyways". I also have little patience to do those kind of things. I'm a nerve wreck and I don't really enjoy things. All I do is to take care of my son, and that's it. Don't feel like and don't have the energy to do more. Everything feels meaningless now that my AH is gone. Nothing makes me happy. He made me happy and I enjoy nothing without him.
I'm sorry I'm so depressed. I wish I could tell you I'm starting to feel better....
Hugs