Who's condemning you? Not me. Sorry if something I said made you feel that way. Maybe I misinterpreted your original post.
Why not just lay off the booze for a couple of months and see if you feel better? No one can give medical advice on here. It's one of the rules of the site. Perhaps bite the bullet and go get honest with the doctor?
And if it transpires that you can't bring yourself to do either of those things, perhaps it could be worth more reflection then.
Apologies for any misunderstanding.
Hope you feel better soon. BB