M-stress stuff. Do you have an exit route to a safe place ? A 'plan B?' Remember to take deep breaths and not to get sucked into alcohol fuelled family/friends politics. After all- most of them you will probably see only for a short time? Keep posting and focus on the not drinking bit. People watch and see how they change with time/booze. Expensive or cheap- booze still affects people in the same way. Support/prayers.