Angie - I'm so proud of you for approaching 50 days.
For me, coming to SR when I was newly sober, I found that the folks in the forums believed I was brave and willing to do what ever it took to stay sober, til I believed in myself.
It's definitely easier for me to take it ODAAT when I have others to help me stay in the moment - and gently nudge me back into the moment when my mind starts to wander. You can do it.