Hi, Unwound, and welcome. Based on your post and as others have observed, I would agree that yes, you have a problem with alcohol. There is a lot of good info on this site and out there about alcohol dependency. I would check it out, learn as much as I can about it. Knowledge is power. If it bothers you to contemplate never drinking again (it did me) then don't think in those terms. Concentrate on today. "I won't drink today." I agree with Frick that sometimes it's beneficial not to overthink. Just put one non-drinking foot in front of the other.
Last, your chances for success in sobriety are enhanced when you have a recovery program. Can be AA, this site, counselling, other secular programs ( I kinda like AVRT) myself. Sensible) or a combination of all. Peace and good luck going forward.