I am sorry you are feeling so badly, efra and anyone else reading here that feels yuck yuck and I know how it feels. It's awful at times. I remember when I didn't know what to do either....yuck....and I felt stuck!! It went on like that for a while before I finally managed to ask for help and got it. I really tried to tough it out and get through on my own and I just got to a point of desperation....I remember not wanting to get out of bed and face the day. I remember isolating myself and being withdrawn. I remember crying a lot. I hope you start to feel better and keep reaching out here. Prayers and healing hugs sent your way...