Hi - I guess one doesn't need to be a psychologist to see that there was something ... concerning... in my recent posts.
Not a relapse with drinking, that is very solid on my end. It's a relationship issue, and I can only blame myself.
Briefly, I met alcoholic ex (the guy that I wrote about here on SR many times) at a work conference, and we spent what I perceived as our best time together ever. He also quit drinking ~5 months ago, which was totally new to me. Amazing conversations and sex as ever...
This would not be a problem on the surface with my husband, because we are in an open relationship and in what we both call "polyamory"...
except that that I am not "poly" when with this "Ex". And he is married as well, not even in a theoretically open way like I am. Now sober.