Originally Posted by
Blankspace87 
Again, many will think that is weak, but it does make sense in my own mind. Sorry, I don't mean to infuriate
No one here is judging you or keeping track of when you quit or how much you drink Blankspace, that's all entirely up to you. It is worth pointing out however, that just because it makes sense to keep drinking "in your mind" that it could be your alcoholic mind telling you that too. Almost all of us have been there before - wanting to wait until the time is right, waiting until after a certain event, etc. But in almost every case it was our addiction telling us that. If you need to quit, now is always the best time.
As an anxiety sufferer myself, be aware that your on/off drinking won't really help either - in fact it might even make it worse as you'll be cycling in and out of the withdrawal phase which increases your anxiety.
In any event though, it's your decision to make and I hope you can make one that helps improve your life.