Suzie hi. I totally get where you are coming from and the struggle is real! I was a big wine drinker, then I was a whatever I could find drinker. If your concern is not being able to go to meetings, you can totally do this without them as long as you make a plan and stick to it. This site can give you as much support as you need. It can be whatever you want to use it for. Once you can stop drinking and get past the first week, you will be able to see things so much more clearly. You will be able to decide then if you need more help or if you can handle it with the tools you have available. Make a plan. Try to get through a week or two. See if your outlook has changed any. It's so worth it.