I also had a kind of "roving guilt" in my first months of sobriety when I was thinking about the damage I had caused with my drinking.
Owning that, forgiving myself, and then focusing on rebuilding a healthy, stronger, better me was what I did to move on. Like Berry, it wasn't easy
and it took some time and introspective space. Take that space and time for you, and let go of anything that does not help you move forward.
I wish you healing and peace BC