Originally Posted by
FenwayFaithful 
All I really ever do is sleep and go to work.
Fifeteen months is awsome, but if all you are doing is thinking about relapse, something is wrong. There is more to a sober, fulfilling life than work and sleep. And if aren't seeking that, I can see why your thoughts turn to drugs and drinking. It's the quick and easy way to get what recovery brings us the hard way.
Hope you turn it around.