Thanks. The thought of sneaking around for alcohol on this trip and feeling like crap would be worse than being sober. I spent most of 2012 sober without help, but I fooled myself into thinking I could have just one....yeah right. I can NEVER have just one. I quit smoking 16 years ago and know I can never one and never have. This is the same thing. It took me a year until I felt normal without a cigarette. I thought THAT was the hardest thing I had ever done. Silly me.