Thanks all. 24, It's painful to admit it, but I know deep down that I've been on the fence for a while, too. Having my wife calmly talk to me about all that I'm neglecting for the family both helped and hurt, but it was necessary. Sometimes hearing the hard truth is the most powerful way to motivate change in our lives. I've thought about our chat over and over in the hour or so since we talked, and she is 100% correct.
I like myself so much better when I'm sober. I need to climb down off this fence and be the man my family needs me to be. No looking back or desiring the good times I used to have with alcohol, which truthfully, haven't been good for many, many years, anyway.