Originally Posted by
Soberandhealthy 
Which though control me : I am not good enough and I will never be good enough period.
I can relate to this. For a long time in recovery I felt very unworthy of all the good things that were happening in my life. I didnt deserve them, I wasn't good enough, in some ways I felt like I must be one of the worst people ever to come to AA. I eventually figured out that Gods love is unconditional. I don't have to be good enough, worthy or deserving, I just need to be willing to do my part, and leave the rest up to Him.
There was this lovely old timer, many years ago, who used to come up with all kinds of quotes and sayings that would get me thinking for days trying to figure out what he meant.
One was "I am what I am and I don't give a damn." Perhaps he meant that his journey of recovery has shown him that the idea of not being good enough had become redundant.