Welcome, Blankspace!
Sorry to hear that your plan didn't work out so well. There's a few of us that have that same tshirt. I'm only seven months sober, so very much in the early stages of recovery. But I'm learning a lot from some very knowledgeable people on SR - it's a great resource and one worth sticking with. If being sober for the holiday period seems too hard, how about just committing to being sober for the next 24 hours? That's not so long - maybe doable? Commit to today, knowing that tomorrow will be better. Then you can see whether to commit to another 24 hours after that. There's a useful thread on SR at:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-188-a.html