Relapse after emotional trauma. Back at day 4. Again.
Hi all.
Been a week or so since I've been here. Had quite the shocker during marriage counseling 10 days ago (the last day I posted) when hubs announced he was back into porn, but it had been over a year since.
Liar, I knew it.
After a little digging and asking him to final come clean, he admitted he never stopped after the last three years. He's been doing it non stop. Google Chrome has this thing called "incognito mode" and it's all there. You can't find it, but I told him I just knew.
The last three years have a been a lie. I've hit two meetings since this big revelation, can't talk about it without being an emotional wreck and I also have individual counseling set up.
I'm staying sober (yay) but my biggest problem or challenge is to stay that way as I go through some serious emotional issues such as lack of self esteem, the betrayal, the trickle-truth (I know there's more, I asked him to take a polygraph) and all the crap that goes with being the spouse of a porn addicted husband.
Any advice is appreciated. I do now have a sponsor (yay) and have reached out to her. I just need support like never before.