Wow!
Thank you so much everyone for your replies
I will have a good read through them all tomorrow.
A lot of what you all have said has definitely hit home.
I've had 6 beers tonight. Me and my husband have spoken about it and he supports my decision to go Teetotal. Although he did suggest starting it in January as he thinks the next couple of weeks might be hard. He doesn't drink at all himself.
Problem is I'm an all or nothing person. I was anorexic at 13, weighing 6stone (84Ibs). I binge ate and put weight on, then developed bulimia at 16 and got down to 6 stone again. I've since binge eaten and am now overweight. This might seem irrelevant but honestly, food is almost like alcohol to me. I can't have a little bit of what I like. I have to do it til I'm physically sick. Once I get the taste, I can't stop.
I will look into AA, does anyone know if you need to be referred by your Gp? Or can I self refer?
Thanks again everyone xx