Wow, I just found this post I did almost exactly 3 years ago. "Had 42 days, relapsed 2 weeks ago and severely hung over today from a blackout drunk yesterday. If I don't stop, there is no question that alcohol is going to kill me. There is no in between anymore, either I abstain or I get black out wasted. It is basically every other day....drink one night, recover the next. I was so horrifically hung over Saturday and then did it again last night! My husband came back home after leaving for work because he forgot something and found me in bed instead of at work....I was so ashamed. I can't believe how quickly my alcoholism is progressing. I'm so scared. I have to stop." 3 years and in same place but much worse off emotionally.