Em24

Hi,

I'm not sure if I'm an alcoholic or not. I don't think I am yet but I definitely have the potential to do so.

On average I probably drink 2 to 4 nights a week. Mainly beer, as wine and spirits get me too wasted. Once I get the taste for it, I can't stop.

I've drunk drove so many times to get more alcohol which I'm very ashamed of.

When I drink I can become quite nasty. Most days I'm fine and just drink myself to tiredness and go to bed. But if there is a guy or girl I like around, I can get quite slutty.

I'm happily married and I feel awful for the way I have treated my husband in the past.

It's just ****. I'm a bad person when I drink but I always crave that buzz that alcohol gives me.

I want to go Teetotal but don't know where to start. I'm in the UK and don't think I'm bad enough to go to AA? They might think I'm a dick for turning up? Or maybe I am bad enough to go there?

All I know is I crave alcohol a lot, it's hard for me to say no to it and I hate myself when I drink.