Welcome to SR! It's easy for us alkies and addicts to get sucked backed into our addictions when the offer presents itself. The key in being strong in my opinion is having a very strong network of support. Though some can many can't do this alone. Look for a means of support that works for you, I'd suggest NA. Visit our Substance Abuse and NA forums as well to see how others have found a way out of the madness...we're glad your here, we'll offer all the support you handle.