Jshep,
Alcohol is magnafying all the stress in your life.
Drinking for addicts, like you and me, is a maintenance function. We call it other names...celebration, mourning, relaxing, watching football, Friday night, friend visit...etc etc...
Really, we need the booze to feel happy. It is part of the brain damage alcohol causes.
Staying sober is an analysis process. Drinking is an emotional process.
It takes a long time to begin to find joy in life with out booze. That is why folks relapse over and over in the beginning.
In the end we must remember alcohol addiction is for life.
I am 19 months sober and I crave daily.
When I go to bed each night and wake up sober...I am winning.
I made the decision..to never ever drink again. Close the door on booze.
You can't spell intoxicated w out toxic. Booze is a Govt approved toxin that quells and weakens the masses. The government makes money off it from cradle to grave.
Thanks.