My take on drunken behaviour and Morality. ..my compass got a little skewed too. Chronic drunkeness does that. So I became a person I wasn't, doi G things I didn't like and justified them.
I (in my opinion) was acutely ill, but wouldn't admit to this.
The same way people can become acutely unwell with a psychotic illness, and can do things while unwell that they wouldn't dream of ordinarily.
I believe I should have been responsible for repercussions of anything that happened while I was drinking. But now I don't beat myself up too much...I have repaired what I can and I have to remember...I was unwell.
I became responsible at the point where I came to understand and accepted what was wrong with me. I am responsible now for staying sober.
I was not and am not now aneed inherently bad person. But just like everyone else I have to take responsibility for my actions...drunk or sober.
If I stay sober I get my moral compass...and my conscience...back
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