Some good stuff there Dee, thanks.
Day 5 for me. I skipped a social event last night that I had REALLY been looking forward to. There would have been alcohol there but that wasn't the attraction. I don't think I would have drunk.
I didn't go because I still feel flat from the last session...5 days ago!
I had some naughty snacks at home and an early night instead. But all the time I was thinking about all the good stuff I have missed over the years (decades, in fact) through alcohol and conversely, how much good stuff I could enjoy if I can make this change.
It was both sad and exciting in equal measure.
I still feel, if I am totally honest, that my chances of being sober for the rest of my life are about 5% best. I won't lie about that. BUT, I feel that my chances of not drinking today are about 99%. So I will stick with today...for today. Hopefully, over time, that 5% will start to rise! It is only day 5 after all.
Thanks everyone and best wishes to you all.