Well there IS a way to remember how bad the affects are. How much time do you devote to staying sober each day? I also went back and forth, drinking casually then overcome with terror and remorse the next day. For several years...
The urges left when I committed to spending several HOURS each day reading and writing on this board and reviewing frequently all the reasons I wanted to stay sober.
That helped remind me how bad alcohol is and that was the only way I was finally able to quit.
Those urges are overwhelming and it's best not to wait until they hit you to start fighting them. Nip it in the bud early and fight the alcoholism even when you don't feel like drinking.
There is hope for anyone who recognizes they have a problem. Not everyone does. Congratulations on coming this far...
