Welcome Rabbit. That was me - did not have cravings, could go for days/weeks without drinking but once I did drink I was all in. black outs, doing stupid things, etc... It was snowballing and getting progressively worse - I saw where that was going to lead regarding my life and family and had to quit drinking period. I cannot moderate, no matter what I told myself. Quitting was the only solution for me. This forum has been instrumental in helping me stay sober.
post here as often as you need too - there are some very wise people here that can help.