Originally Posted by
smadams11 
Here's what I am expecting to hear from you guys...
'If you are managing to control your drinking, you weren't an alcoholic in the first place.'
I don't care if you are an alcoholic, and I consider the matter irrelevant.
Originally Posted by
smadams11 'It's impossible to cut down.'
It's possible, but it carries very definite risks.
Originally Posted by
smadams11 'It won't last.'
It might, but there is a definite risk that it might not.
Originally Posted by
smadams11 'If you haven't given up completely then you are still an alcoholic.'
I don't care if you are an alcoholic, and I consider the matter irrelevant.
Originally Posted by
smadams11 My last words are these: if it feels this good at half intake, what kind of heaven awaits at total sobriety? I may find out one day. And I can't wait.
I don't believe you. Your entire post is pure Addictive Voice.
In all probability, you are chronically addicted, and like all addicted people, desire to drink whenever you want, only without incurring any penalties.
You can't imagine a satisfactory life without the option of drinking alcohol, so you make total abstinence contingent on other, secondary matters, such as heaven and happiness. A bargain promising a payoff.
If heaven and happiness do not await, then back to drinking you go, because drinking has some benefits, provided that you manage to stay out of trouble.
Were you expecting that?
What exactly is your plan for your future use of alcohol?