Originally Posted by
Smarie78 
Do you feel your love was enough to weather this hurricane of a storm?
Turns out that, for me, it wasn't even close to enough.
But I could walk out of the hurricane, and I eventually did.
Then comes the work of rebuilding all the devastation left behind.
I don't know how to answer the question of regret. There are 16 years of memories and not all were bad, four children, and the biggest chunk of my adult life wrapped up in the decision to marry him. I can't wish it all away but would I have wanted a different ending to that chapter - of course. This is not the life I had pictured. It is not the life I wanted with him and it is certainly not the life I wanted for my children. But I chose it. I can look back and see that I chose it every step of the way and I do wish that would have been different. But we don't get do overs. We make choices today. Today is our chance to know better and do better. In 5 years we'll be looking back on them. I hope that I'm making better ones now but if I'm honest - not always.