Originally Posted by
livingnow 
Peace (in my life) Calm (in my mind) are my long term goals.
I created my own prison (Yes, I hear the Creed song playing) by drinking.
I created my own Anxiety by trying to avoid anxiety.
Peace, calm.
Yes, me too. Drink, causes chaos and then the attendant anxiety.....as a consequence of which, I'd drink more, cause more chaos (plus devastation after blackouts) ad infinitum.
Once the precipating factor of alcohol is withdrawn and the withdrawals abate, peace and calm can be nurtured through self-care, excercise, meditation, eating well etc.
I adore my new found clarity of mind, after 20 years of alcohol addiction, it's such a relief. As a consequence of freedom form addiction, I'm rediscovering myself, and the beautiful world surrounding me; plus my long lost abilities.
Who knows, and with a clear mind, perhaps I can make up for lost time. I've certainly grown and flourished since becoming a non-drinker, compared with the rotting, stagnant mess of a human-being I became, drenched in alcohol.