Originally Posted by
shortstop81 
It may be he isn't willing to try to understand addiction, but is he willing to support you in your recovery?
That's where I am.
My husband is VERY supportive. At the same time he doesn't understand why I can't just say "no". For him it feels like I am a moral failure. I must just be "bad". When I tell him that I can't help it...he says I'm not trying hard enough and I must be full of it...
Maybe he has a point. I drank at lunch today...I could have said no. I could chosen differently. But I didn't.
There is a part of me that thinks I'm just a piece of ****. I CAN help it, but I CHOOSE not to.
Not sure what to think. Maybe it's true. Maybe there is no hope for me.
But I read on here, I've gone to some meetings and it makes me think there IS hope. Other people have done it!
My next goal...dont' drink before my meeting at 17:30.
I don't know if I can do it, but the fact that I want to gives me hope that maybe there is a way for me to be sober.