My turn to be "that guy."
Ironically I was the one who started the sober Thanksgiving thread! And I bet I’m the only one that relapsed! I feel so stupid… I gave in to that reasoning that I could handle a bourbon or two before bedtime. After all, I did really well for over two months, why not?
Yeah right.
One bourbon led to many. One bottle became 5 (if I counted right). One solid week of basically drinking from morning until night (I was off work). I kept asking myself why?? Why can’t I be classy and enjoy a nightcap like they do in the movies?
Because I’m an addict, that’s why.
I was keeping a daily journal since my sobriety. Wrote in that little book every day. Until last week. I stopped visiting SR because I thought I had matured. Thought I didn’t need it anymore. Thought I got this. And therein lies my problem: I thought.
So once again, right before work this morning I made that trip to the gas station trash can and ditched my empties. And so it begins... again!