I feel like I'm in a fog this time. I know I won't live this way any longer but trying to feel (think) my way through it. Think you Lexie and everyone for your reminders. I don't think my close friends believe this time is different. I start wondering if I will back down but HP has given me almost daily reasons that this is not the way to live just exist. Then I feel if the marriage fails is the rest of my world going to collapse.