Good job, christyham, I don't think too many of us were very keen on going to our first meetings. I know I was too indignant, too prideful, too ignorant, too stubborn and too scared and it took me a good 2 years to go from admitting I was alcoholic to being able to get through the AA doors for the first time. And I shook like a leaf the whole time.
You will be ok, the first steps are always the hardest. You'll find good support and good people there.
