I needed to hit the point where I didn't recognize myself, and realized I was completely lost. I wasn't living the life I was born to live.
I needed something to come along and to break the cycle of my addiction, something that nobody within my circle of enablers could do.
I needed to turn my life over to a Higher Power.
I needed to let go of the fear of facing my past. I finally did it.
All of these things had to happen before I ever stood a chance of recovering.